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A flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Thursday, August 28, 2014
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Always keep RADIATING!!
Hi beautiful and talented ladies! You two have been on my heart as school is starting up. I know both of you can get frustrated in your
current learning environments, as they are not always as supportive and/or effective as you would hope. I just want to encourage you to press into and trust your own creative self and also the Chekhov work as you move though that atmosphere. Radiate in each moment! I'm sending good energy your way. You are both AMAZING!!!
current learning environments, as they are not always as supportive and/or effective as you would hope. I just want to encourage you to press into and trust your own creative self and also the Chekhov work as you move though that atmosphere. Radiate in each moment! I'm sending good energy your way. You are both AMAZING!!!
Me: Gaahh COLLEEN You are truly amazing, thank you . This is everything I needed right now hahaa! It's so strange how atmosphere really does affect you... the first day of school I realized how in my head I started to become. Thank you for sending me you radiance colleen! Your light and warmth has reached me! and I will receive all your good energy, love, and care with me as I continue my process and growth (with the Chekhov work! :D). AWW COLLEEN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! I greatly appreciate you! And this message you sent to Gabbie and I, this means so much to me. I have this image of your warm hugs and embrace haha, and I miss you so much! The way you shine is so addicting haha! I am always drawn towards you! In class today I kept telling myself to I am going to radiate and expand just like Colleen haha! I will always have you in my heart colleen, you have this amazing lantern that has this power to reach others and help their light radiate as well. You are such a beautiful human being and artist. Thank you again Have a good start and school, and I send my affection and well received positive energy back to you !
We Must Be Heros
As artists we stand at the forefront of humanity. We lead and speak from the heart in hopes to inspire the world that they can too. We portray dreams and desires that people feel too ashamed to show.As actors we must not only be heroes, but remind the world they they can be heroes too. -Fern Sloan
Friday, August 15, 2014
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Talking to Analise, Her Passion and Drive Grounds Me
We talked about a lot of things. The main things though.
1.Accepting ourselves, and realizing it's our own process.
No matter how someone viewed my performance, in the end of the day only how I feel and my opinion about my own work counts. Because you may not like my performance, but I know how much work and effort I put into it. And I only need my approval. That's all that matters. As human beings and artist, we are always seeking approval or the okay from others, but we need to learn that we don't need anyones okay haha.
2. Creating A Nourishing Environment
Fullerton is so cut throat! And everyone sees each other as a competition. Or as if the BFA are gods. We are all artist, and we should support each other. Only this way are we really able to work as an ensemble and create and work on our craft together! No judgements. I really want to help the freshmen class and create this new positive energy at fullerton flowing haha!
3. Work Atmosphere
No cell phones, no judgements, no talking. Discipline. Leave the world behind and emerse into the craft when working. Just like the summer arts. To be ourselves, to find ourselves, to lose ourselves in the work.
4. The Drive, The Passion, The Action
Follow my impulses. Listen to myself, and my want. No more what ifs. Turn those what ifs to reality. You want it? MAKE IT HAPPEN. Because you can :). I want to bring that passion I had at CSU and bring it to Fullerton. I want my drive to do this and that turn that talk into walk, hell even run. I want to bring my vision to life! I want to follow my heart and impulses! And I WILL! I want to put myself out there not to show me for the bfa, but to share my radiance, openness, and craft to the world! I want to inspire people! To show me because I want to! Not because it's an obligation, haha because I have want to give others what I have! What a beautiful thing haha! I want to give a little bit of my heart to everyone who is willing to receive it. I want to learn, I want to grow! I'm ready to embrace all my wants and turn it into a reality. HEHEE SO EXCITED. Just like all the acting teachers at CSU have shared with me. Thank you for letting my flame radiate inside my lantern and emulate that to the world. I hope my heart will be able reach others and warm their souls, beings, and the artist in them. To allow them to live their life with radiance too haha. Thank you :)
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Michael Chekhov Teachers
Fern- Thank you for allowing me to open up. To let go of everything I held so tight. To embrace myself and who I am. You keep me grounded. FOR HUGGING TREES. I remember your words "Look at this tree, look at it's stern base. Now look up and the beautiful leaves and its branches." Something like that haha. But to allow yourself to become that base in order to grow and radiate. "We must be heros." You are one classy lady!
Ragnar- Thank you for allowing me to follow my impulses. To listen to my heart, my body, my surroundings. The atmosphere around me. How amazing it is to be yourself. Thank you for allowing my imagination run free, to follow my visions and make them a reality! To be able to share that with the world! To be true to who you are and yourself. Your bravery and courage to listen to yourself. To sit back down instead of going up in front of your class because even if you did, you wouldn't physically be there. And we live so much of our lives not fully being there, because we aren't fully ourselves, you put up a facade. The way you move is wonderful! To look up at the stars! Because life is beautiful, embrace it! Don't just look at the ground when you walk, theres so much more than that! Perspective!! No wonder you went to the woods HAHA!
Craig- Thank you for your clarity and specificity! You gave me the opportunity to apply everything we learned to life and acting! The walking with honey, marshmallow, heart center, everything. Thank you for seeing my growth. You are an amazing teacher. To be gentle with the ball, and focus on the balls journey we are just helping it move a long the way. Its about the journey, the other, and gentle. Focus.
Joanna Merlin- Bless your beautiful soul. Thank you for inspiring me, for sharing your light with me. Thank you for giving a new look out on life. You taught me that we are all in our own process, and it doesn't matter what other people think, only what we think matters. Because we know how much we work and put into our craft. For showing me fame isn't success. You are successful. That our process and our growth never ends. And if we keep doing what we do, then there is always hope. It's not about what job we land its our career :). Our passion. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, your heart, your radiance and your talent with us. You choose to teach to share that with artist who share the same dream, hopes, aspirations, drive, and passion. And that's something you can't give to an audience. And how rewarding it is to share it with us, that meant a lot. I'm very blessed to be apart of that group. I'll always remember that. Thank you for focusing on my growth, my process, and what I needed, and not the result. For your patience, your gentle heart, and your willingness to work with me, and allow me to grow without ever hindering my process. I never felt pressure with working with you. That was the best feeling in the world. And it's okay to be different. Thank you for continuing the MC work, I want to be apart of this one day. Damm your 83 and still auditioning, you go Joanna! NOW THAT'S WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE.
Jessica- Thank you for your warmth, patience, tolerance, and loving heart. You were like a mom to me. Thank you for telling us that if your not okay then you have to tell us. Because if you aren't we won't know, and we can't help you. Let us help you. Thank you for lighting my flame for my lantern. Thank you for allowing me to face my issues and not stop until the image has left me and I can move on. Thank you for allowing me to be truthful and accept reality. IT'S NOT OKAY, BUT IT WILL BE OKAY! I'm not okay, but because im honest with myself and no I'm not okay, I will be okay. Hahaa thank you mom <3.
Mario-rikka- You are one fine woman. You, I need you in my life. You are my structure, my passion, my drive, my discipline. "Acting is hard, but it's not difficult." "If you want it, you have to work for it." "7 o'clock wake up." You have that passion? Then show it. You have that drive? DO IT. No talking. Focus on your work. Don't remove yourself from the process. You have so much passion, its addicting. I want what you have. I need that discipline. That push. That slap, that spear through my stomach. You are so kick ass. Thank you for sharing your strong passion with us. Im working on it! And i'll say hi to john short for you!
Hugh- Thank you for your kind heart and making this all possible. You allowed me to come to you with open arms! and even lifted me up! literally that hug though haha! Thank you, your loving heart, that openness!
Ragnar- Thank you for allowing me to follow my impulses. To listen to my heart, my body, my surroundings. The atmosphere around me. How amazing it is to be yourself. Thank you for allowing my imagination run free, to follow my visions and make them a reality! To be able to share that with the world! To be true to who you are and yourself. Your bravery and courage to listen to yourself. To sit back down instead of going up in front of your class because even if you did, you wouldn't physically be there. And we live so much of our lives not fully being there, because we aren't fully ourselves, you put up a facade. The way you move is wonderful! To look up at the stars! Because life is beautiful, embrace it! Don't just look at the ground when you walk, theres so much more than that! Perspective!! No wonder you went to the woods HAHA!
Craig- Thank you for your clarity and specificity! You gave me the opportunity to apply everything we learned to life and acting! The walking with honey, marshmallow, heart center, everything. Thank you for seeing my growth. You are an amazing teacher. To be gentle with the ball, and focus on the balls journey we are just helping it move a long the way. Its about the journey, the other, and gentle. Focus.
Joanna Merlin- Bless your beautiful soul. Thank you for inspiring me, for sharing your light with me. Thank you for giving a new look out on life. You taught me that we are all in our own process, and it doesn't matter what other people think, only what we think matters. Because we know how much we work and put into our craft. For showing me fame isn't success. You are successful. That our process and our growth never ends. And if we keep doing what we do, then there is always hope. It's not about what job we land its our career :). Our passion. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, your heart, your radiance and your talent with us. You choose to teach to share that with artist who share the same dream, hopes, aspirations, drive, and passion. And that's something you can't give to an audience. And how rewarding it is to share it with us, that meant a lot. I'm very blessed to be apart of that group. I'll always remember that. Thank you for focusing on my growth, my process, and what I needed, and not the result. For your patience, your gentle heart, and your willingness to work with me, and allow me to grow without ever hindering my process. I never felt pressure with working with you. That was the best feeling in the world. And it's okay to be different. Thank you for continuing the MC work, I want to be apart of this one day. Damm your 83 and still auditioning, you go Joanna! NOW THAT'S WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE.
Jessica- Thank you for your warmth, patience, tolerance, and loving heart. You were like a mom to me. Thank you for telling us that if your not okay then you have to tell us. Because if you aren't we won't know, and we can't help you. Let us help you. Thank you for lighting my flame for my lantern. Thank you for allowing me to face my issues and not stop until the image has left me and I can move on. Thank you for allowing me to be truthful and accept reality. IT'S NOT OKAY, BUT IT WILL BE OKAY! I'm not okay, but because im honest with myself and no I'm not okay, I will be okay. Hahaa thank you mom <3.
Mario-rikka- You are one fine woman. You, I need you in my life. You are my structure, my passion, my drive, my discipline. "Acting is hard, but it's not difficult." "If you want it, you have to work for it." "7 o'clock wake up." You have that passion? Then show it. You have that drive? DO IT. No talking. Focus on your work. Don't remove yourself from the process. You have so much passion, its addicting. I want what you have. I need that discipline. That push. That slap, that spear through my stomach. You are so kick ass. Thank you for sharing your strong passion with us. Im working on it! And i'll say hi to john short for you!
Hugh- Thank you for your kind heart and making this all possible. You allowed me to come to you with open arms! and even lifted me up! literally that hug though haha! Thank you, your loving heart, that openness!
My day in a nutshell..w.e that means LOL
Went to back to see my lifeguard friends!
I was hesitant before I quit, and I honestly didn't want to come back to that kind of environment. And Jaylin is the new pool manager, idk she talked shit about me wearing make up one time lol, so I just never trusted her. But everyone was very welcoming and sweet! I saw Eddie, Alex, Jennifer, Ruben, Harrison (and Jaylin LOL)! Hahaa makes me feel bad that I didn't visit them sooner :(. This is their last week. OMG I FORGOT WARNER!! AND HER NICE ASS OMGGG LOL. Yeah I miss that shit lol. Oh yeah and alesha and lorrey...el ol el... But it was nice catching up with eddie, alex, and harrison at jacks!
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Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Blogger Confusion
Kinda figured out to use blogger now LOL.
Geez took awhile... Customizing this and that. Time for monologue hunt!
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
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